moving on

go to my new blog, http://www.ifyoureallyknewher.blogspot.com

guess you don't know me that well,
guess you don't know what pain is,
guess you think im lying,
i don't care what you bitches think of me,
i don't care if you think im begging for sympathy,
you just don't get me,
and please, keep blaming on my ass for everything.
you don't know what im going through,
so just shut up
and stop talking behind my back.
im better off without you.
i know its okay to be left out,
i know its okay if they planned something
and didn't invite me
and plan things without me,
i know its okay to be left out,
i know its okay to have just one friend,
i know its hard to get back on track,
i know it hurts so bad,
i know.
thanks for making me think
that im not worth living in this world,
thanks for making me feel like a horrible person,
thanks for making me suffered each and eveyday,
thanks for making me weaker,
thanks for making me struggling to fix things up,
thanks for making this hard.

tumblr

won't blog here anymore.switch to tumblr.

little wonders

i don't know if anybody reads my blog. well.its sad hell to the yes knowing that no one reads my blog.sigh. but yeah,i'll keep on blogging and keeping my fingers crossed that one day they will notice my blog and give a damn about it. yesh, i mean it. ohh, sounds so desperato. blogging is the only way to express my feelings,my deepest thoughts. its 2.42 in the morning. i can't sleep.insomnia heh?i guess im sleepy now. im crapping, ohh wait, i guess thats why people thinks im boring. i have a very low self-esteem,feeling insecure abt myself all the time, no one is there to comfort me when i fell like the world is againts me.. they had no idea how much pain i have to go through, and blamed me for everything. thanks a lot. i shouldn't have borned at the first place. everyone treats me like shit. well,some people. its like i don't even exist in this world. but i thank you mak for bringing me into this world full of obstakles cos i know u'll be there for me.i just want u to know i love u no matter what happens. HAPPY BELATED BELATED BIRTHDAY, MAK